Only if it were...

this one thing i didnt wish to happen

this one moment i hoped had passed

this one second that never should've stalled

froze when it came along

a silence submerged yet a cacophony surrounded

a smile appeared and the gloom drowned

this one road i never should've crossed

this one turn that i took wrong

this one journey that i was on

destined it seemed though it was not

solitary stardom blossomimg in autumn

spiraled down into a bottom

this one desire for which i craved

this one romance i longed for

this heartbreak that i never dealt with

this one baggage always i carried along

blurred memories sleepless nights

dreamy visions moody lullabies

this one ambition i never let go

this one dream that i put forth

this one battle i fought in my mind

knights and princes, empires brought down

victories compromised rules bent

this one chase never came to an end

this one fear that came back to haunt

this one lifetime that i wouldn't want

brought to ruins the castle that i build

now that i wish that vaccuum should never have been filled...